“El Viaje Definitivo” (The Definitive Journey)
. . . and I will leave. But the birds will stay, singing:
and my garden will stay, with its green tree,
with its water well.
Many afternoons the skies will be blue and placid,
and the bells in the belfry will chime,
as they are chiming this very afternoon.
The people who have loved me will pass away,
and the town will burst anew every year.
But my spirit will always wander nostalgic
in the same recondite corner of my flowery garden.
Juan Ramon Jimenez – translated by Carlos Casteneda in his book Journey to Ixtlan
We can’t go home. We can’t go back. The places and people we left will never be the same, if even they were what we thought they were.
Similarly, we can’t go forward. We can’t go ahead. The future won’t be the way we imagine it, so we’ll never get to our ideal image, to our fantasy.
All the better to live fully in the present.
All the better to live a life of passion, of energy, and in connection with what is real right now.
Sure, it will mean that we’ll need to leave all this behind, so we’re guaranteed to be alone and without all of our past nor ever reaching all of our future. Does that aloneness need to be loneliness, though?
Does the fact that all things will change mean that we should hold back so we don’t lose what we have? No, just the opposite. Living fully, now, awake and alive, with all the fiber of our existence, assures us that we will have something to leave behind, something to treasure, and will have created something beyond ourselves.